My fascination with breasts

For as long as I can remember, I have always loved breasts.....

It has never mattered to me if they were big or small, wide or thin.  As long as it had a nipple, I loved it.

It wasn't until I put on a bit of weight on and felt my own chest jiggle a bit, that everything just excelled from there.  I started to look a breast forms.  The more I looked at them, the more I craved to get a set.  The more the craving grew, the more I wanted to get the biggest ones that I could find.  I then started learning that you could attach them to get the real feel of the weight.  I then started looking for breast forms that had realistic weight and size to them.

I have recently seen a site that has a package where they will apply breast forms for you, apply your make-up, wig and sexy clothing to make you look as female as you can.  Then for a bit extra, will go out on the town with you.

How exciting that would be.

Some history

My earliest memories come from a very young age....

My parents had been split up for a few years and my aunt had been living with my father, sister and myself.  She was a very alluring individual.  She always seemed to have this exotic look about her.  I had always seen her with lots of guys and wondered what it would be like to be the center of all that attention.  One day I had gone into her room (which was my old room, but she was using it while she stayed with us.  I remember seeing bras and panties lying all over the room.  There was also pleasured sex lubes and other sorts of things.  I remember a few time taking some of those bras and panties and wearing them when no one was around.  I did enjoy the feeling I got from wearing it.

After she moved out, I longed to have that feeling again.  I remember taking bras, panties and lingerie from relatives and from friends.....I look back now and can't believe I took all these peoples things...

As I got older, I would go to thrift stores and pretend that my mother had sent me to get some things for her.  Thinking back on it now....lol....I know that no woman would ever believe that.  Sending a young boy to pick out clothing for her.....what at joke.   But, I had convinced myself. 

I started buying sex toys and using them anally.  I would by them, use them for a bit and then throw them away in denial.  Wish I had kept them all now, cause I would have quiet the collection.....lol.

I then met my fiancee and started a family.  She is a great woman and has on occasion used toys on me.....my dreams were coming true. 

Over the years I have been with her, I have tried on some of her clothes.  I have even tried wearing some of her make-up.....all without her knowing.

I started checking out adulthypnoticwishes.com and instantly loved it.  The thought of being feminized was very appealing to me.  The problem being that my fiancee would have nothing to do with something like that and I have absolutely no female characteristics at all.  I would be the ugliest woman you ever did see....:(

More and more as time progressed my urge to become a shemale has been great.  I long for the day to actually let it happen.

The beginning

I sit here, after years of not knowing or wondering.....

I know I am male.....but why do i have all these female tendencies.....why are they so appealing to me.

This will be my virtual journal into the exploration and discovery of my true self.

I hope you enjoy and appreciate any comments and support.